okay so apparantly ima bitch..and im trying to break some relationship up between my friends..blah blah blah...its kinda pissing me offf. but anyways..ill deal with it. thats life..shit always happens..mothafuckers!

so i changed my eating for the better..but now thats its spring break..its kinda hard to stay away from the junkfood and im not motivated to go work out..but all of that is going to change tomorrow..i need to lose weight. Im a fucking fatass..and im sick of it.
maybe im gunna have an eating disorder..maybe i already do..who gives a fuck. i mean im sure i do..but right now..my mind is telling me something different. I need to lose more weight and i need to be skinny in order to be happy with myself. thats just the way it has to be...and thats just the way it will end up!

anyways..i guess i should go to crunches and finish this movie..or whatever.

But keep in mind...im going to do it!!
im going to be a skinny motherfucker and everyone will love me more. =)

WISH ME LUCK!!

Last night the sky was as if it came out of a video game of some sort such as silent hill or something that was lofting around in the back of my mind. Twas lighter looking with some orange and a pinkish glow, not your normal sky. There was no moon. The color kept me up at least half the night. Shone through my window like something mysterious. The sky twas mysterious indeed. Twas captivating. My simple mind enjoyed it.

Twas rainy/windy all day. I enjoyed it. I like how the wind and cold chaps my nose and turns it red. I like how it feels numb. I like how your whole body feels completely numb,how the leaves rustle around behind you as you walk,how the sky looks gloomy,how everything seems to go in slow motion. It makes me happy inside.

Hmm I find it funny how some people are complete dumbasses (myself sometimes) but they dont realize it. Oh well..that's life for ya. forgive and forget eh?

Cold weather today also. I love it. The cold makes me feel free and whatnot. It's nice.

I guess I should wash my hair tonight. That would be nice.

much love for now. I guess..if you wanna call it love.

so today was good..but I dont like drama queens..and most girls are...maybe thats something i hate..do I hate girls?..thats probably it. I get along with guys like way better. I want a job and I need a job..they need to call me back and say.."whitney..we wanna hire you!"...I shall be excited!..lol...life is nonchalant. got switched to digital photography..so i now have 5 classes instead of four. Maybe im smart?.

I kinda feel like going to the park or something. clear my mind, today was stressful. but isnt it always stressful? people are annoying. some people bother me alot. and they shouldnt, but they do. I wanna learn to play the piano. I like it alot. It sounds really pretty. I have been in a different mood than usual. Candles make me feel good. I have been burning them like crazy. They are fascinating..or you could call me crazy for talking about candles..

I dont like being sick..and you always sound funny when you are..its silly.

I kinda wish my life was like a song...but that would be a silly song..dont you agree?.

oh. what a wonderful caricature of intimacy.

the violin is also a wonderful thing to listen to.
Yes,I ramble alot. I am truly sorry..but sometimes..I dont give a shit what you think. wait maybe I do..I cannot be mean. or can I?. there we go ago...next line please.

shadows amaze me. alot of things amaze me...So I have this new friend. he's quite amazing. very interesting and intellectual person.

I should stop staring off into space. nothing is going to happen.lol.

There are no raindrops on roses or girls in white dresses
It's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
At the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And A few more of your least.favorite.things.

They ended up ..well,making love isnt exactly what im looking for.
But.

You.

Get.

The.

Picture.
oh. what a wonderful caricature of intimacy.

hmm its been awhile since I came on this thing..wow...i guess I have a life..uinlike some people..lol..j/k...but xmas was great..and new years was even better...I hope it went the same for everyone else...school is grand!..my freinds are grand!...Hilary came to see me..then she left me..and I got sad..but im over it now..lol...I want her to come down again..gunna start going back to the gym soon..and I have a life...lol..
catch ya on the flip side..</3me

Hey hey hey,
what's shakin ya'll?...hmm well 2day was an ok day. Volleyball practice wasa killer because we have a game tomorrow, friday the 26th all the way in tampa, so we were practicing like mad today and i have had a headache for 3 days now. It sucks! I'm a bit nervous about the game tomorrow..I hope we win!..Root for us all my friends!!...lol. I got a new photography camera today. It was my granfather's...but ima have to clean it and it's not that new but you know what I mean. I'm going to use that one until I have enough money to buy my own.But anyways, I think ima go...I have 2 get my volleyball bag together and work out tonight, then take another shower and watch t.v, then i'll prolly hit the hay. He he..so everyone have a nice night...and I heart you all!
Love, me

howdy ya'll...whats shakin n bakin?...uhmm lets see I haven't updated this in a while b/c I started school and I absolutely love it!..I know everyone there and you can get away with alot of stuff!..hehe...I went to warped tour o5 and it was kick ass!...so much fun!..tooks tons of pics and saw soem of my fav bands like, MCR, MAE and I got a pic with them..and tons of other bands!...hmm..I gots me hair cut short and it looks cute...hehe..I look more mature and grown up....I'm on the volleyball team at school and our first game is friday the 26th...tis going to be alot of fun!..I cant wait...but i shall talk to you all soon!...and call me peoples!!!!..I love you all so much!!...mucho love!...

If i'm not mistake...today's my birthday!!!!!!....yay!!!...happy sweet 16 to me!...rawr!...anyways...ima go out and have some fun!...<33...*Whitney*

well..apparantly tomorrow is my bday!...Happy Sweet 16 to me!...lol...I'm so excited...uhmmm....well I'm kinda tired so i'm gunna go hit the sack...*muahs*

Hmm Howdy guys!...Tis Whitney!...lol..Just got me a live journal..I know I should have got one sooner but w/e...anyways...Steph's party was alot of fun!...went to go see Fantastic 4 and then played 2 games of  laser tag..then headed out for pizza and camehome..and killed poor joshie!....SRY JOSHIE!!!....hmm well...like I said..her party was awsome!!!...Happy Sweet 16!!!.....Oh yes...she got these candles..and they supposedly "sang"...well...I took one and just held it for a while..waiting for it to play the song..and it never did!...how sad!...but I am keeping the candle so I can try it later..hehe!..yesh!!!o yes...the pelting of the tootsie rolls and starburst war...twas alot of fun..it lasted about 2 hours!...yesh!...He got hit in the eye...like 5 times...lol...but anyways....Ima head out...so bye

~Whitney~